I have a busted babymaker

Well, just as the title says, my babymaker is busted. After having some cramping and pain, and two visits to the OB with an ultrasound and exam, I was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). Basically what this means is that my hormone levels are totally out of whack, I have cysts all over my ovaries, and a ton of other little issues. This also explains all the issues during my pregnancy, weight gain and trouble losing it, high blood pressure, acne ect.

This doesn't sound too bad, right? Well PCOS is the #1 cause of infertility in women. But I already had a baby, so I souldn't have issues right? Well, the way it was explained to me, I had been on birth control pills for many years, which helps keep the cysts from forming and evens out hormone levels. I was lucky and got pregnant right after going off the pill. But now my ovaries are totally covered in cysts.

It's going to be a long hard road to get pregnant again, or so I am told. I went for blood work this morning to check insulin levels (often really high with PCOS), testosterone levels and a few other things. I go back in two weeks to go over the findings and discuss treatments. Looks like we will need some fertility medication, so here's hoping it does it's job and it's not a super long journey for us.

Some may know we have been working on another baby since December, so now with this new diagnosis and an amazing OB who said will work with us every step of the way and "get us pregnant", we have put our faith in God and know when it's in His time, we are ready with open arms.

So I am coming to terms with my new diagnosis and the fact I have a broken babymaker. I'm scared, sad, upset and so many other things, but I thank God every single day for giving me a supportive husband and an incredible little boy that they say "it's amazing" I ever got pregnant with in the first place.

So now as I start my journey with PCOS, I can't help but hug my munchkin a little longer, and enjoy him more and more every single day.